nothing much of significance has happened lately. or perhaps. too much of significance has happened and this blog seems to be the last on my mind. today i have finally found the time to type an entry. i doubt, even if u see the date as the 5th of October, it goes up on this specific day because i tend to get long-winded and interrupted at very...inopportune times. as such, u already have evidence of it.
firstly, an update on my results: well. i have done badly. with no one to blame but myself. i tried to study. really i tried. but i cldn't. the prelims are...boring. i am very very tired of the paper chase. the constant rat race. i havent old and exhausted as i have had this past hour..after a 2 and a half hour nap. i woke up, feeling disoriented and lost. I felt too tired to want to pull myself out of that loss. my dad is beginning to give me pressure: his sarcastic remarks that i wld end up in polytechnic are so oft said that it is fulsome to my ear. sometimes, somewhere not so deep below the surface, i want to stop studying, forget everything and just go to ITE to spite my dad. it'll be but a momentary satisfaction underneath all the frustration and exasperation of myself being so stupid and silly to want to do sucha thing and of course, carrying it out when i know its stupid.
now, i can only hope i wont be alone when i go to CJC. or at least i hope to. i dont have any wish to end up in some school where i cannot fit in becuz 1) i don't speak fluent hokkien 2) i don't keep up with the mainstream music scene, especially the chinese music scene. 3) i have a slight accent and this annoying habit to correct people's pronunciation. and tho i have my doubts that i would fit in, CJC is the only one in my range that i have a remote, if any, hope of actually fitting in.
i wonder if the invisible imbecile (alliteration!) would tag again. i am very annoyed to admit and confess that the moron irks me. sort of like a gnat i can't get rid of. anoymous taggers are, in my opinion, losers with too much time in their hands. The fact that they leave themselves anonymous, says alot about their guts and courage. certainly the lack of it. Another sad point that they so happily display is their idiocy. They apparently do not like wot their reading but yet they read it again and again anyway. A little bit like self-inflicted torture: stupid and painful. such behaviour strongly suggest mental masochism.
insivible the imbecile isn't the only anonymous tagger around. that eee person on yuzhen's blog who wrote in capital letters and insulted me and her as fat ugly creatures who should not be shown on blog when yz uploaded pictures on graduation ceremony day. he/she was obviously spoiling for a fight and when he got a rather formidable one, he backed down as fast as possible. giving a visual image of a fierce wolf who had now gone whining and whimpering away with its tails between its hind legs.
another anonymous tagger: that sad sucker who points the accusing finger at munloon and claims that he copies his entries and work from somewhere else. granted, things like these happen often. but the finger was pointed with no evidence or proof. and when demanded that he produced such, he placed a link to a porn website. the cards were den clearly laid on the table: the sucker only wanted to pique the readers interest, so that when sufficient hooha has been made over evidence and proof, he'd place the dratted link and everyone would visit the damn place. stupid and immature, just like the rest of the taggers.
i suppose, other than my dismal marks and results, which my friends have had enough to hear about, i have nothing else to rant about. that this, annoyance warrants time and space on my blog already answers my initial ponderings...nothing much of significance
has happened.
on a much briter note however, life seems pretty nostalgic nowadays as i think of wot would happen when i lose my classmates. the good the bad and the ugly. today, we (yeu, doreen, yz, matthew, iz and me) spent two hours in class after school reminiscing about the times we had. and tho, i faked crying a couple of times, it has been a rather wistful period and i have no doubt at all, when oct 29 comes, i would cry and sob with pure sadness at leaving my friends as we branch out into different parts of society.
if u're thinking: how much of a briter note is that than the others? well. not much. except for the fact tt i'm finally leaving this godforsaken place called WuZhong. oh how i loathe this place. and im aware that, after the class of 2004 leaves, a large part of my very limited favourites of this institute would have left as well. hence, no regret, other than im leaving and drifting from my friends, has stemmed out from my graduation.
well, my dad is pushing to go to bed even tho its only 10.50pm now. and i am duly irritated and will obey only to get him off my back. -shrugs- its not uncommon nowadays that i feel especially uncontrollably rebellious and broody.
