yeah. he will. as soon as he sees my common test report slip. ERK. i am so DEAD. i totally threw my bio and chemistry paper into the dustbin. i can see it. triple Fs. cuz u noe. my math paper is tmr and here i am blogging instead of studying. ERK.

anyway. yesterday i watched the seniors get their result. and boy. it was SCAREH. so many of them ran their hands thru their hair in frustration. cuz they were nowhere. the possibility of them not making it into a university in singapore was very very real. so little of them actually had big grins on their faces. it was very very real. i cant seem to stop thinking how scareh it is. and suddenly the A levels dont seem that faraway and it doesnt seem that intangible.

i rmb watching the seniors in bp get their o level results and i was somewhat fuelled by the need to have my name called to go up on stage when it was my turn to collect my results (of course that didnt happen). and somehow tt need doesnt seem as empowering as this fear. i want to be like one of the girls i saw yesterday. she was bawling her eyes out. but only becuz her hardwork paid off. she did it. she got the results she wanted. and THAT is what i want need.

i got my chinese A/O results yesterday. i did it. i passed. not too bad i must admit. a b4. with a distinction in my oral/aural. it felt great tt now chinese can be more of a hobby instead of an obligation. i can use it when i feel like it instead of using it as a necessity. and now. i no longer resent chinese cuz its not something i do cuz i have to. hah. anyway. yeuai that BIATCH got an A1 for chinese. like what a whatthefuck move. hmmph. FINE. so u got A1. big deal. hahaha. lets see for our A levels k. yeuai. u beat me in o lvls. but watch out for the As. hahahhaa.

anyway. yesterday was cheryl's birthday. and i got her a vcd. "Eight Crazy Nights" adam sandler's first cartoon. hahaha. i've watched it before. and it's hella funny. i wld've gotten her a huge slab of chocolatey sin instead but her birthday fell on ash wednesday (a catholic celebration to fast for the day) so i decided to get her the vcd instead. anyway. happy 18th! -beams-

oh. i bought new underwear on tuesday. and i swear. this buying new underwear thing is getting to be a new obsession of mine. hahaha. wait. i guess this is probably abit of an information overload for almost everyone. but what the hell. hahaha. my blog! hehz.

i miss nana all of a sudden. i dunno why. and i bet tt hoebag doesnt read my blog no more. but i guess tt's what happens when people drift apart. oh wells. i gotta go study. mmm hmm. time to start practicing math. UGH!